this season of my life is called ✨back to basics✨
i started learning to draw just under 2 years ago, and i really loved it. within a few months though, i pivoted prematurely from drawing to painting.
i did it because i was so fucking desperate to leave my tech job and i didn’t have the self-trust back then to leave without another career prospect lined up. i didn’t think that anyone would pay for my measly figure sketches, but what if I made big colourful canvas paintings instead? people could buy those, right???
and thus began my career as a “painter”. i’m proud of the work i’ve created, and they represent an important part of my journey. it’s just that the initial motivation for them may not have been from a completely self-aligned place.
i fear that admitting all of this to the instaverse will de-legitimize me as an artist, but i don’t really give a shit anymore. nothing is more important than my relationship with my own creativity. and really, nothing “legitimizes” an artist more than being honest about what kind of place they’re creating from.
so, i’m picking off where i left off and going back to honing my figure drawing skills with @kenzoandmayko Love Life Drawing platform. (btw pls do not offer to send me resources for learning art/drawing, i research these things more than you could imagine and know what works for me and what doesn’t.) i might continue to dabble in painting too but only on my terms. i also have so many other creative things i wanna learn and practice, from calligraphy to flower pressing to mirrorwork to neon bending. #adhdbrains
i know i’m “all over the place”, i always have been and always will be. i don’t have a formulated plan on how to make money anymore, but i trust that the universe will bring opportunities once i get to a place of integrity in my craft and my creations.
this caption is way too long, guess it was something i needed to get off my chest. thanks for reading this far and if you’re up for it, i’d love your support in the comments! what a roller coaster, this life thing. love you all ❤️
Originally published on Instagram.