life has been super hectic lately. i’m in between leases after traveling for 2 months so all of life feels like it’s in limbo. been stuck in a loop of not doing anything creative lately, so today i decided to go back to basics, and just draw.
charcoal figure drawing was where it all started — my art journey — and it will always feel like home. i’m out of practice, the proportions are a bit off, but it felt so great to create something again, however simple. i think i’ll do more of this.
discovering two new loves: 1) painting with wet charcoal and 2) painting on raw canvas!
as a creative there’s always an internal conflict between doing what feels good internally vs making something that looks good externally — ie, the process vs the product. all creative wisdom will tell you that the process is what truly matters and I agree, but sometimes the desire to bring to life an beautiful envisioned product is too tempting. (and this is already ignoring the fact that society & capitalism places value purely on the product and the pressure of that)
for me, that means i’m usually torn between drawing (the process that i love) and painting (the product that i envision). i’m trying different ways to create what are essentially drawings but that also have the beauty and grandeur of a painting, and this piece is pretty much that! love how it turned out 💕
the past few months have really been a “questioning everything and reinventing myself” period. inconsistency in all areas of my life, from my creative processes to where i sleep that night. that means i created a lot of random works, at random times, in random mediums, on random themes, in random styles. i’m thinking of maybe just making this a whole collection titled “Inconsistency”.
who knows if this is the end of this period but i do feel something bigger brewing around the corner… After a whirlwind summer i have lots of plans to dive deeeeep next season and im super excited for what’s coming 😉
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